In the past, I have written about being outgoing and shedding older versions of myself in order to meet people (read: women). The past four months have been among the oddest of my life, in summary:
-Added certifications to make me more employable (Which seems to have had the opposite effect)
-Pursed a job where I stay unsuccessfully sober and serve drinks to drunk chicks (Married, fat, old drunk chicks)
-Lost approximately 25lbs (No need for congrats here. When people congratulate you for losing weight, all they're saying is, "Look at you, being less disgusting and shit."
In spite of all these developments, I have been on a dating/meeting women cold streak that I cannot fully explain. Over the past few years, I have broken many old self-defeating habits: avoiding eye contact, avoiding public places, and being too afraid to initiate conversation. I now believe I am a decent looking guy, with most of my teeth, no (domestic) felonies, and who may have something to offer to someone.
And I'm getting NOTHING in response. Polite smiles, thanks but no thanks, and the crowd favorite of being totally ignored. Even in the world of online dating, my batting average is worse than a gay Puerto Rican waiter (Shit...they play a lot of baseball in Puerto Rico...bad example). I send out my usual emails where I try and be funny and while I know that you won't hear back from all of them...a response from one out of 22 goddamn emails sent would be nice.
